The Before&After ;
I’m in a good place. My God, it took me awhile to get to this place. The journey had an enormous amount of pit falls that I’m positive I’ll come across again but next time they will be different; I’m sure of it. My armour has strengthen and that’s one thing that I know for certain. ‘They say’ the less you care the happier you’ll be. Never really sure how to grasp that phrase since ‘caring’ is a huge part of my make up. After reoccuring let downs from people I held up high something finally clicked and I made that phrase personal to me; the less you care (about how others treat and/or feel about you) the happier you’ll be. It was that simple. I just stopped caring. I stopped expecting. I stopped questioning and overthinking. And just began living my life for me. Knowing your worth is not something that happens over night. At least It wasn’t for me. It took time, more time than I would have liked but God makes no mistakes in His plans so I never complained. I’ve been spending so much of my time with myself because I finally realized the importance of putting me first. I do what I want; not in a form a cockiness or selfish pride but out of humility that God has blessed me with wisdom which begets more wisdom and maturity. I’m happy and I truly mean that for the first time since I was a child and had no serious worries. There will always be people whose intentions aren’t good but I’ve become more aware of the people that enter my life and those who already have a place and I choose where I stand with them. I’m not afraid to admit my faults, through the years I haven’t always been the best daughter, sister, cousin, girlfriend, friend… but I know where I’ve went wrong and I’ve been commited to repairing my flaws that have been detrimental. I don’t regret my past, the things I’ve done, or said because at one point it’s what I felt was right but I have learned from all my experiences… tremendously. I don’t want to revisit it. What’s left is left. And what’s right … well, is right in front of me. Being in a good place isn’t about everything going right or having it all it’s the ability to accept the wrong and be able to still smile through it all.
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